For memories

I sometimes feel as though the purpose of my life is to create memories. That it is less about the experiences themselves, less about the forward momentum towards a goal, less about where I'm going and more about where I've been. If I can amass meaningful memories, it was worth it. Even if it ultimately wasn't where I wanted to be. 

How does one move forward if the favored focus is on the past?

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